LEO, the heart of our inner child
Dear, great multi dimensional universe
My morning, pages here, I’m feeling the zenith of the sun coming during this vibrant Gemini season. And I love it. This is my favorite time of year. There is a beautiful cool yet warm humid feeling on the skin. It is luscious and flirty and I love it. I am remembering that just last year at this time I was getting ready to journey to Kemet in Egypt. The full Sagittarius strawberry moon is tomorrow conjunct the great attractor at 14° Sagittarius, fairly close to my 19° Sagittarius Sun. And yes, also feeling this with my 26° Gemini rising self. I really come alive with wonder and awe at being human and deeply in my senses during this time of year.
I’ve been so afraid to write lately. There is a part of me that still feels inadequate to find and craft the most complete thoughts that I feel, so a lot of the time I don’t bother. I skip it, and move ride to the next one. I keep all the musings and wisdom inside me a lot of the time, because language is honestly never enough sometimes. I can feel trapped by language. There are so many messages and feelings floating around in my consciousness at any given time, and sometimes I love just being with it all, putting no pressure on myself to decipher it. There is play, there is movement, there is breathe, there is music….
and that’s where LEO comes in…peeking in to say hi
Because if I deny these energies for too long, they just get all clogged up. My dreams become nightmares representing the clogged drains. Peace of mind comes when I write and get all of this stuff out of my being. I know this on such a deep level. I’ve been writing, or rather using writing as a practice for relief and healing, since I was a little girl. Even though I didn’t write about the abuse while I was experiencing it, It doesn’t mean that it’s lost. It’s still inside me. My experiences are still there. I have so many things to share, so many things to say. It is truly never ending and will probably take me lifetimes to uncover. I feel like I’m on a heroes journey. All of us are in someway, and mine is the heroic journey of my inner child. Symbolized by the portal of the heart. This brings me back to the frequency of Leo, and why I love this star so much. Leo is courage. Leo is the invitation to ourselves to get back in touch with that inner child. This inner child is always with us if we allow them to guide us in play and lighthearted, fun and sweetness. There are deep simultaneous fire & water like light waves of healing that are available to all of us. This frequency is actually at the heart of our hearts, the bliss the happiness, the play and the instinct to move toward the joy, the light and the aliveness that is our birthright. The truth of who we really are is there. Our true essence is divine, our true essence is honor itself. This is the frequency of Leo. Honoring our light with courage when we have felt dis-empowered or have dis-empowered another. From this deep sense of courage, we can send love to those places of unworthiness, to begin to break all cycles of oppression. And so it is! and on and on. I am the great cycle, I am the honor, and I am, the light.
